It’s been five years since we stood in front of our friends and families and Jennie walked us through saying “I do” and “I will” and “I promise.”
It’s been five years since we walked hand-in-hand down the aisle because we wanted the very first moments of this marriage to begin with us as a team.
It’s been five years since we stopped planning a wedding and instead began a marriage.
And they haven’t been all blissful.
They have included two failed pregnancies and the realization that parenthood would not be a part of our future.
Trips to the doctor and news that has meant that our “forever” might not be nearly as long as we’d like.
The loss of loved ones.
Moving away from friends and an amazing support system.
The stress of building a business that has often required long hours with little pay.
Arguments over chores. And money. And how to spend the weekend.
And in place of “bliss” we’ve had real.
My tears over letting go of motherhood were met with a warm embrace and the mix of his tears with mine.
My fear and fury over my health issues have been met, time and time and time again, with steadfastness and courage.
Loss has been shared.
Dreams built and encouraged.
Faraway places discovered.
Conversations lasting into the wee hours as we discuss books and ideas and life.
Hand in hand.
With the certain knowledge that it won’t always be easy.
With the certain knowledge that we will never be alone.
With the certain knowledge we can grow and change and that we will always be supported.
That our love grows stronger and more resilient with every overcome challenge and every new day that we share.
Five years ago I never could have known how much better it could get. That our wedding was merely the beginning. That this shared life wouldn’t be blissful, but that it would be awesome.
I love you, Justin! Happy anniversary!!!