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5 Years!!!!!!!

It’s been five years since we stood in front of our friends and families and Jennie walked us through saying “I do” and “I will” and “I promise.”

It’s been five years since we walked hand-in-hand down the aisle because we wanted the very first moments of this marriage to begin with us as a team.

It’s been five years since we stopped planning a wedding and instead began a marriage.

Five years.

 

And they haven’t been all blissful.

 

They have included two failed pregnancies and the realization that parenthood would not be a part of our future.

Trips to the doctor and news that has meant that our “forever” might not be nearly as long as we’d like.

The loss of loved ones.

Moving away from friends and an amazing support system.

The stress of building a business that has often required long hours with little pay.

Arguments over chores. And money. And how to spend the weekend.

 

And in place of “bliss” we’ve had real.

 

My tears over letting go of motherhood were met with a warm embrace and the mix of his tears with mine.

My fear and fury over my health issues have been met, time and time and time again, with steadfastness and courage.

Loss has been shared.

Arguments forgiven.

Dreams built and encouraged.

Faraway places discovered.

Conversations lasting into the wee hours as we discuss books and ideas and life.

Adventures embraced.

Expectations released.

 

Life faced.

 

Together.

 

Hand in hand.

 

With the certain knowledge that it won’t always be easy.

With the certain knowledge that we will never be alone.

With the certain knowledge we can grow and change and that we will always be supported.

That our love grows stronger and more resilient with every overcome challenge and every new day that we share.

 

Five years ago I never could have known how much better it could get. That our wedding was merely the beginning. That this shared life wouldn’t be blissful, but that it would be awesome.

 

I love you, Justin! Happy anniversary!!!

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MonicaNovember 29, 2013 - 8:45 pm

Happy Anniversary! You guys are awesome!
Also, I might have just completely teared up at this post. Thank you, Cindy, for always reminding me what really matters.

Beth JacksonNovember 30, 2013 - 4:40 pm

Happy Anniversary Cindy and Justin and many more to come….We love you guys!

Beth and Pat

BeccaDecember 2, 2013 - 11:02 am

These words and sentiment are beautiful, Cindy. So are the two of you. Happy awesome five years to you both! xoxo

BethDecember 3, 2013 - 1:11 pm

Congratulations on five years of real love and life! Thank you for being part of our day, and sharing your time and lives -you are amazing!

meg simoneMarch 23, 2014 - 2:20 pm

This post was so emotional and heartfelt. Thanks for sharing your story and reflection on five years, with us :)

Thankful for…

I have been sitting here trying to think of a way to say all that I’m thankful for in a new and original way. To add my own blessings to the countless numbers of “thank yous” being released out into the universe today in such a way as to not be cliche or trite.

But it turns out that I’m having a hard time caring that much about originality in this instance.

I just want to be thankful and to say a few things out loud to acknowledge the fact of my fortune. That’s it…no preamble or pretense, just gratitude.

So.

Among the many many things that humble me with deep gratitude:

To be alive and loved and have enough to eat each day.

To live in an era and place where I’m recognized as a human and a citizen capable of thought and pursuit.

To be loved.

To have education.

To be loved.

To have access to outdoor spaces and the freedom to wander them without fear.

To be loved.

To have the necessities of life taken care of in such a way as to allow space for dreams, big and small.

To be loved.

To have a home which warms me in the cold of winter and shades me in the heat of summer.

To be loved.

To have had amazing and inspiring people model what it looks like to have the courage to begin again (and again. and again.).

To be loved.

To be loved.

To be loved.

I could not begin to capture in a single blog post even a small fraction of the multitude of incredible things that I feel so so thankful for. So I’ve listed just a few. A few tiny pieces of this life that astounds and moves me and drives me to inch ever closer to the person I aspire to be.

In addition, I just want to thank all of YOU who are reading this little slice of the blogosphere…I know how precious the moments in our lives are and so appreciate that you spend any of them here with me!

Happy Thanksgiving!

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Good Morning!

I awoke in the dark hours this morning with a yearning so deep for trees and frost and the fog of my breath as I exhale. I swallowed my need as I poured a cup of coffee and reminded myself of the long list of to-dos unchecked on my desk upstairs.

Ought-tos.

Must-dos.

The call of my fifteen hour work days that are the norm in this season bearing down on my wild heart.

I stood for a breath. And then two.

I stood in the predawn light at the threshold of my office trying to ignore the whisper of the forest.

And then I pivoted on my heels and I ran. I ran for my camera and my backpack. For my journal and my sketchbook and my mittens.

For my sanity.

And as the sun crept over world’s edge, I found myself in a stolen hour among old friends who have lost their summer clothes and whose branches now hang exposed and stoic.

And I remembered that I find my best me here.

Have a lovely weekend, friends!

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BeccaNovember 26, 2013 - 5:47 pm

You are AWESOME. That’s all. Just plain awesome:)